What?! No Wordless Wednesday?

I know! How can that be? Well, let me explain.

This past weekend had me at the Women of Faith conference in St. Paul, MN with my oldest daughter. Then I worked all weekend. Monday I worked and then the reason for being off-blog the last few days…

My 2nd daughter, Smooch, was at the State Team Tennis Tournament in Minneapolis!!! AHHHH!

I took Tuesday off from work and already had Wednesdays off so I headed down to watch my girl play some awesome tennis.

Unfortunately, I don’t have a laptop so had no way to create my posts…kinda. I DO have my Droid2, but wasn’t interested in using it to create posts! Seemed like a lot of work on a little phone! I was able to keep up with my emails, to a degree, so I was very thankful for my new phone!

Yah, so the tennis games…didn’t go so great. Our team played the top team on the tier. We lost fast and easy. I guess the team was from a private school where they have private coaches and year round tennis.

The next team was very equal to ours. Smooch was completely at the same level as the girl she played, buuuut, sigh, she doesn’t have very good endurance. On top of that, she had eaten a 6” sub sandwich about an hour before she played. She should’ve eaten light, but I wasn’t even thinking of that. For the record, the volleys these girls did were insanely long. I could’ve read a couple chapters of a book with how long it took one of them to score a point!

I would say 1/2 way through the first set, she was grabbing her side and was having a hard time breathing. She wanted nothing to do with her coach or anyone. She wanted to be left alone. Unfortunately, instead of getting mad or frustrated and putting it into her game, she sinks inside of herself and it becomes a mental and emotional game in ways that she just can’t shake.

And there I sit, watching this all happen. Watching her struggle, knowing that our relationship is so tumultuous that she wants nothing to do with me. For me to try to encourage her would have been like a matador having a sit down chat for a few minutes after he’s stabbed the bull a few times. Not gonna happen.

There were a few times that I thought I was going to start crying and at one point had to go to the other arena where some friends were watching their daughters play. I needed to talk to someone who could calm ME down so my Smooch wouldn’t see me so upset. We all want some success for our kids, right? Even if it’s ONE not-so-measly tennis match?

Well, our team won so that meant they were to play again today. Wow, today. I had Bible Study Fellowship and half our North of home and the match was about an hour and fifteen minutes South from my house. I could do it! *wink*

I prayed. I prayed a lot. I didn’t try to bribe God, but I did beg and plead that He would be merciful and show his favor on my girl. Throughout my prayers I did go back to, “Your Will be done.” I just hoped his Will would be for her to win at least ONE game at State.

Unfortunately it wasn’t to be. The entire team lost. They came in 6th place. I believe in their division there were only 8 teams that made it. The tennis department has only been in our district for around 7-10 yrs, if that. Our rinky dinky town rarely goes to State for anything.

As parents and a district we are so proud of each and everyone of these girls! They put their hearts into each match they played and represented our town very well! Not a single one of these girls gave up and played until the very last point!

So, in a nutshell, that’s where I’ve been the last couple days! Sorry that I don’t have a WW or linky. I’ll be back next week!